October: Attitude of Gratitude

Fog. The slow motion of Fall. Vitamin D. Searching for beginnings. Motivation. Licks of sunshine. Taking more trips. Spending time together. Soccer days. Sleeping in (a little). Comforts of home. Reading. Orange. Pumpkins.  Short light in a day. Grocery shopping. Yoga classes. Things don’t slow down or stop, but they can change. Blogging. Feeling inward without extending outward. Remembering. Walking. Running without remembering. The passage of time. Connections. Love. Yourself. Always.

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Most days I write down five things I am grateful for, big or small, subtle or apparent. I archive and post the list monthly. This is October 2013.

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October 2013.

finding out about new work arrangements — no rain when I was doing errands — going to my workout even though I didn’t feel like it — only doing what I felt like doing — not feeling stressed, guilty, or frustrated because I wasn’t doing the workout planned for me.

my Love for rearranging his day to make mine easier — having lunch with a very dear friend — going for a run and not getting stormed on — the guy who gave me a thumbs up as I ran — new running clothes — seeing the kids at the end of the day.

the dental hygenist who made me laugh about having OCD about people’s teeth — that the rain let off today — seeing other runners that motivate me to keep going — warm soup for lunch — a cookie after lunch.

multi-tasking so much at work I didn’t care what went wrong — getting a chiropractor appointment — the kids being patient and friendly (with each other) — finally getting another pair of kids’ soccer shorts that I’ve been meaning to buy for 3 weeks — coming home and it being the weekend.

the kids being excited about their soccer games — that it was not pouring rain and standing water on the soccer fields — that I went and did my run without any expectations — the sunshine and vitamin D that surprised me on the run — spending time at home puttering.

a good movie about the human condition — a long-overdue hair cut — that the kids again patiently waited for me — a challenging and rewarding yoga class — my husband and kids doing grocery shopping.

that there was still some sunshine when I walked to work — that I passed up early morning coffee — that texting exists to help coordinate my family life — feeling like anxiety is a reminder to let go of fears — that I waver between all out panic and not giving a shit.

a slow day at work — having a couch to crawl onto when I wasn’t feeling well — taking some time for me — modifying my run workout — that my husband had dinner ready for me when I got home.

the glory of an extra 45 min of sleep — an emergency and necessary physio appointment — resting when my body wanted it — being able to (successfully) make what the kids wanted for dinner — feeling stressed and anxious for 15 less than yesterday.

lots of Rescue Remedy — my morning shower which I turned into a sauna — those moments in the car when you are commuting (and late) but your kids say funny things + unknowingly lighten the mood — going to bed so early I had time to unwind before I fell asleep — the funny kid with the toque who smiled when I was again running breathlessly uphill.

that I have a blog — that the worst that can happen is simply in my mind — the realization that not all exercises are good for me (or maybe I am just doing them incorrectly) — the present moment because no one can take that away from you — putting aside expectations.

watching the boy play soccer — a moment’s pause where I wasn’t wrapped up in my worries — noticing the leaves changing colors on my walk — an easy nap — going to bed early.

a good night’s sleep — getting to the race with plenty of time — endurance, support, determination, and cheers — hugs from friends — going home.

an extra day off — Autumn sunshine — going for a walk with my boy and noticing what he notices — having a nap when my body crashed — my Love for doing the grocery shopping.

time to braid my daughter’s hair in the morning — a much needed physio appointment — stopping and treating myself before I went back to work — finally choosing to make a new connection — the heat in the house.

that feeling of making a connection/appointment/commitment to a care-provider and already feeling better — that my watch was not a distraction on my run — that it’s still sunny out — that my phone didn’t die after it mysterious shut off and then rang uncontrollably for 3 min — the kids’ humour, “oh that hurt my nutzos!”

feeling energized knowing I was only working a half-day — getting home and getting homework done early — the smell of baking and chocolate — having someone else pick up my daughter from soccer — going for a run in the sunshine.

a fantastic email from afar — the connection you get when words bring you closer — knowing that others feel the same way — warm food on a cool day — the leaves and colours of October.

waking up and realizing it’s the weekend — the serendipity of following the same car to and from my son’s soccer game  – even though the other car wasn’t going to the same place — the joy my son gets from playing soccer — the taste of a hot beverage after watching 3 hours of soccer in the cold — the mid-afternoon realization that my workout for the day was done in the morning.

having delicious pancakes made for me — being able to do my workout whenever I wanted to — the kids doing their own laundry — the motivation and energy to clean the house — the incentive to write, even when the words aren’t near perfect.

waking up knowing that this is a shorter work week for me — all the sudden and new blog followers — making it in time to see my daughter run her race — that someone else can do pick up after soccer practice — that rice and beans in a tortilla makes an easy and comforting meal.

Starbucks — realizing the closer you get to a choice that’s good for you the more your resistance increases — not getting hit by a flying duck when running in the fog — hot water in the shower — the kids planning for the day ahead.

a parking spot I can always count on — acknowledging that I don’t have to do everything — the comfort of a good book — support in unlikely places — having the time to take as long as I wanted.

the guy who let me merge into heavy traffic — that today is Friday a day early — yam coconut soup — feeling better after my run — going to bed when I felt like it.

not rushing to get on vacation — the difference a change of scenery makes — aromatherapy massage and spa — soaking in a mineral pool — my husband for taking care of the kids.

early morning trip to Starbucks — catching the ferry on time — island-hopping to watch my daughter play soccer — yummy and tasty food that everyone enjoyed — a surprising adventure and exploration of new run routes.

my husband’s dedication to his job — the rewards a sacrifice and compromise can bring — sunshine in October! — the red of maple leaves — the cat was still alive when we got home

being able to watch my daughter race in the city finals — my daughter’s effort, determination, and results in her race — a decadent hot chocolate mix — the washing machine that gets the job done without being reminded — trading a Halloween outing for a coffee date.

waking up before my alarm, but going back to sleep — an extra cup of coffee — meeting my sweet for a lunch date — breathing — knowing that starting is much harder than finishing.

the way the sun reflects off the office buildings as the city awakens — easy traffic on the way to an appointment — gently discovering more about myself — my Love bringing home delicious take-out comfort foods — half a night of good sleep.

no soccer practice on Halloween — my husband for taking the kids out trick-or-treating — sunshine all afternoon — the energy boost the chocolate chip cookie gave me — scheduling an appointment with my naturopath.

 

October: Attitude of Gratitude

October was a transitioning month. I ran my first marathon (something I truly never, ever thought I would be capable of), the weather went from balmy summer to deep winter in the span of  about 10 days, and I started my Attitude of Gratitude. My thanks again to Ruth of Writing Ruth for inspiring me with her own Project Gratitude.

Most days I write down five things I am grateful for, big or small, subtle or apparent. I archive and post the list monthly. This is October 2012.

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extra sleep — staying home for a rainy day — support from afar — being healthy, even if I don’t feel healthy right now — flexibility in daycare pick up times.

feeling content — a baby’s squeal of joy while learning to walk — sunshine — reminders to take ‘La Pause’ — good posture.

a husband who does it all — my physiotherapist — the right things, at the right time, in the right way — another blogger’s gratitude — sharing chocolates.

a lazy morning even though I later rushed to make up for it; doing less meant I got to do more — calmer children — leftovers for lunch — quick recovery from last night’s workout — blogger comments.

I guess I have to say it: blogging with Le Clown — Friday — taking a day off running to recover from this cold — letting go — remembering to make space for others’ needs.

being appreciated — sunshine! — a hot beverage — ease in the present moment — a willing and organized family.

a run without rain — a friend to run with — yoga — the strange quiet within — hugs from afar.

seeing the Pickle run her heart out — comfort at home — seeing old friends — a swim —  a reminder and an example to follow.

sleeping in right to my alarm — not having to make lunches – a day without appointments — the leaves outside my window — a list to remind me to be grateful.

a day at home — making it through Bootcamp — less traffic — creating simplicity — the strength of a group.

the good day and great attitude both the kids had — exercise — rest — time with someone I love — a blogger’s clown-y interest.

being Freshly Pressed… again! — Friday — coffee, even de-caf — my love — making lunches the night before.

the motivation to run in the pouring, pouring rain — the man who drove by me, honked and gave me the thumbs up as I ran in the pouring, pouring rain — hot water — dinner out so I don’t have to cook — a movie with my sweet.

a trail run of humility — the calm after yoga — having extended family that live in the same city — grocery shopping at dinner time when the store is almost deserted — sleep.

choosing to commit to myself, over and over and over until I got into the pool this morning — getting in to work later — emailing with virtual friends who have such big hearts —  left-overs for lunches from a dinner I didn’t make — how Project Gratitude led me to my Attitude of Gratitude, which has spilled over to other bloggers: Kozo’s Everyday Thanksgiving and GiRRL_Earth’s G is for Gratitude baby.

better sleep, despite still feeling exhausted waking up — no early morning workout — cute kids — My husband making kids’ lunches — the thought of hot chocolate.

my warm pea-coat — my cute umbrella from Beijing — making it through Bootcamp — my husband doing Halloween — feeling better today.